I'm too lazy to blog
I'm not antisocial, or clinically depressed. I'm just lazy. I can't believe I've only posted two blogs this month. It's so weird that so many of us are graduating and becoming real nurses. Getting real jobs and doing real nurse stuff. We've all spent the last year or two propping each other up through this whole thing, and now there is a light at the end of the tunnel. When I start thinking I'm an idiot, I make a good grade on a test, or do well on a clinical assignment, and then I breath again. Someone asked me today if I was tired of school because I want to earn money, and I said that I haven't worked for a salary in several years, so that wasn't really the incentive. I'm just tired of the worry all of the time. The constant second guessing of am I going to make it. Am I doing a good job. Did I forget something, or some homework assignment, or are we going to have a quiz, or am I going to be late for clinical. That's what I'm tired of. I want to feel competent. I don't want to feel uneasy. I want to feel capable. I don't want to think about this anymore. I think at this point, that is as meaningful to me as actual nursing.
posted by hoosier nurse @ 7:54 PM
3 Comments:
That is a very accurate post of how I think a lot of us feel right now. So many times when faced with a new challenge it is easy to think that we don't have the skills or the knowledge, when in all actuality we do. We all just need to have self-confidence in our abilities and KNOW that we will be GREAT nurses! Have a great day!!
I feel like I'm on the last leg of a roller coaster ride. Up to this point, it's been full of many twists, inversions, short and fast ups and downs.
Now, we're climbing, climbing, clicketky klackety up that last big hill. The one that we know will send us plunging fast and deep. As we near the apex of the rise in the tracks, there's a sense of excitement, but also dread at how scary the other side will feel.
You will get through this hump. I hope you find an assignment or something that gives you that last little bit of 'oomph' to get through the semester. Hang in there!
I always say that I want to get to the point that I don't feel like a person pretending to be a nurse. I hope I am almost there.
Glad you're still in there and doing well.
W. :)
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